There Are No Happy Endings

because nothing ever ends.

lately, I've been quite sad.. and I've been thinking about my dad, and it's been hard for me, and I just can't figure out why I just can't let go. People usually say I need to let go, but yesterday someone said I don't need to let go. Sometimes I think I'd be dishonoring him if I did let go, but I don't really know anymore, because things have gotten so hard for me. It's not so much situation, it's just everything is the same, I am just thinking about it more. I don't know who I am, and I wish I did. Maybe it's because people tell me who I am.. or maybe it's because I don't want to know, because I'm afraid I'll figure out I'm not who I want to be, although to ever be what I want to be, I have to realize who I am right now. Lately I've been really into "The Wall" by Pink Floyd, but I think it's because Roger Waters and I have so much in common, and I wish we didn't because then i wouldn't be in so much pain. But honestly, there is an emotional wall between me and everyone else.. well me and most people.. There are a few people who I do let through.. but not many.. I just hope to figure things out... I really do..

Tyler..